And yet

I can’t exactly tell you when it happened.

I’m not even sure I know myself.

But there I was, sitting across from her like I had so many times before.

I found myself looking into her eyes and seeing more than just those emerald greens.

I found myself looking at her while she sat there looking at me.

All at once, every single one of my insecurities I had fought so hard to hide and forget about came rushing back to the surface.

And yet, every fear that had saturated by heart and soul seemed to be put to rest and were at ease.

I found myself wanting to smile a sheepish boyhood smile of giddiness and excitement.

And yet, my palms began to sweat because I was more nervous than I had ever been before in my life.

I could see every one of my successes and triumphs playing before me like a movie of my life.

And yet, each seemed insignificant because she hadn’t been by my side as I had gone through them.

I began to think back to the ones I had adored before, each one beautiful and full of grace.

And yet, each seemed to be less than ordinary and forgettable now that I was with her.

I found myself thinking of everything left in my life that I wanted to accomplish and succeed in.

And yet, all seemed meaningless if I could not achieve them or share them with her.

I can’t exactly tell you when it happened.

I’m not even sure myself.

But there I was, sitting across from her like I had many times before.

I found myself looking into her eyes and seeing more than just those emerald greens.

I found myself falling in love with her while she sat there already loving me.