It will never

It will never be in my words and it will never be in what I fail to say.
It will never be in the flowers you get or the gifts I buy.
It will never be in the breakfasts I bring you in bed or the times I rub your shoulders.
It will never be in the way I hold your hand or the embrace we share on cold nights.
It will never be in the kisses I steal before we say goodbye or the nights spent in sweat and lust.
It will never be in the glances I give across tables or the smiles that you make happen on my lips.
It will never be limited to the moments we share and it will never be limited to the times when I need you most.
What I feel for you will never be confined to words or my actions but only to the limits of my imagination and my heart.

Fear

As a child, the only fears he knew were those of  young children.

A fear of the dark because it could hide all things that went bump in the night.

A fear of walking through a crowd and losing a grip of his mother’s hand.

His fears were never lasted long and always seemed to disappear.

He was protected by the blanket of youth and innocence.

But the day came when the blanket would no longer be able to protect him.

The day came when the truth of the world was set upon him and infected hs life.

A child forced to face his greatest fears and to face them alone.

The reality of life held fears he could not have prepared for.

The darkest fears one could have were thrown at him fiercely.

He tried his best to overcome each and every fear that he encountered.

But there were fears that he could not escape and those grew into doubts.

The fears made him question his path in life and where it would take him.

The fears caused him to question himself above all else.

The fears and doubts began to whither away his courage and determination.

The fears dominated his life and caused sadness to breed.

And after years of facing his fears, he could no longer find the strength.

He searched and found the courage to face his last and greatest fear.