I find myself longing for sleep.
I long for it because in my dreams is where we are never apart.
Where our love is never separate and I’m free to love you how I want.
In my dreams I can give you the world that you deserve.
In my dreams I can be the man you need me to be.
With my eyes closed, I see you for who you truly are.
I see every gentle flaw and every perfection which to me is absolutely perfect.
I see your desires and I see your dreams and I see the person within the beauty.
In my dreams, time stands still as I hold you until our hearts beat as one.
In my dreams I feel you until I’m in every one of the corners of your mind.
In my dreams you I am yours and you are mine.
I long for sleep because in my dreams is where you exist.
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Should Have
As always, I sit here after the fact and think of what I should have done differently.
I think about what I should have said and what I should have done to keep you here with me.
This time is different.
This time thing things I should have done and the chances I had are all gone.
This time you won’t come back and I know this and it kills me.
This time no flowers with a card that reads “I’m sorry, please forgive me” will do.
Because what I should have done was bought you flowers before you left.
I should have bought you a flower shop or your own garden so you could see my love grow like the flowers that would bloom.
I should have stopped you from walking out the door.
I should should have thrown myself in front of that door and shown you that I’d stop the tides and time itself to be with you.
I let you walk away so easily that night.
I should have held on to you like I was holding on to my last breath because that’s what it feels like now.
I shouldn’t have given up so easily and taken you for granted.
I should have fought the fight of my life and gone 10 rounds with the devil himself for you, but the bell rang and I threw in the towel.
I didn’t speak the words that you yearned to hear that would have kept you by my side.
I should have memorized the dictionary to find the perfect words to tell you all that you mean to me and to write the love letters you deserved to read.
I shouldn’t have let my pride or my ego make me too proud to beg or to say I was sorry.
I should have thrown myself at your knees like a child or a man with nothing left to lose because I lost everything I had and everything that I am when you left.
I can sit here and tell you all that I should have done but you’re gone and all I have left are some fading memories, an empty bottle, and a list of things I should have done.